These are my CONFESSIONS
I have been on here for the past hour reading over all of the other weight loss blogs I have come across and now I sit here asking myself, 'Why can't that be me?!?!' What am I not doing right? Okay, okay. I know what it is. I have not been on a strict "diet" since school started and I eat late and I eat big when I do eat. Fast food has been my friend in my fast life and then if it isn't that it is some type of snack cake or something that fits easily into what little room is left in my bag or what ever will be able to withstand the varying temperature in my car from day to day. Not to mention anything that I can also share with my daughter should she be with me and happen to be hungry in a spot where I can not afford to pop open my shirt. (I tried feeding her baby carrots and I almost had an aneurysm when she started choking on a little piece she bit off. No more carrots unless they are mushy!) Anyway, that is why I have not lost any more weight and why I have actually gained some of what I had lost back. I have been hovering at 155 lbs for some time. I know if I were to get serious about watching what I eat and exercising I could do it but that is everyone right?!?! I want a magic potion to drink; something that will work overnight with no adverse effects. Fantasy, right? I know. I am too lazy. I am too tired. I have no motivation. No one is looking at me besides me and I guess I am content with where I am in some alternate universe so I have no motivation. I am not looking for a man so I don't feel pressured there. I see everyone's progress and I an genuinely proud of and happy for them but I can't see where they get the motivation from especially after many months of working out and planning meals and counting calories. It is a life change I know. So does that mean my life is bad?!?! Okay, now I am depressing myself - all 155 lbs of me...
Current Weight: 155 pounds
Weight loss so far: 7 pounds ( from 162 lbs - I am starting from where I plateaued with the weight loss from the baby)
Biggest Temptation: Fast food
My treat: Everything I have eaten lately has been a treat!
My best discovery: I can maintain my blubberiness eating what I want.
Current Weight: 155 pounds
Weight loss so far: 7 pounds ( from 162 lbs - I am starting from where I plateaued with the weight loss from the baby)
Biggest Temptation: Fast food
My treat: Everything I have eaten lately has been a treat!
My best discovery: I can maintain my blubberiness eating what I want.
posted by KMF at 2:21 PM
5 Comments:
never stop trying.
Hang in there! You'll find your motivation. It's right around the corner.
@Sha-dizzle and Lex - Thank you both! I am much more motivated today. I think it was stress and sickness getting me down. I can do it! I will do it!
Hey babe! You know what? If you're happy and you're not in any urgent hurry to do it, stop being hard on yourself! Life doesn't stop for anything no matter how much we want it. Sometimes the kids needing to be fed... work... the pile of junk in the spare room, it all takes precedent! When you're good and ready you know what your goals are and you can give it your all. In the mean time, be kind do yourself girl :)
@Kenz That is so true! I know I need to stop being hard on myself but when "the weight issue" comes up I feel so bad for all of the "wasted" time. I see people who are so motivated and doing so well and it make me feel so bad! I know their life is not my life but still...I could be doing something!! It will all happen when the time is right, rigt?!!?
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